The cosmos inside out.
Go back to the the story of my life,
or continue first with this most interesting idea:

Because I had read somewhere an article about Einstein's cosmos as an higher dimension in which you go into the cosmos in one direction and you return from the other side, though you have gone in a straight line.
And in this article they showed a way to explain this by turning an tangerine inside out so that its parts from the inside still should be connected to each other at the outside.
That means: you go from part A to part B as if there isn't any outside room between them, the same as it was in the inside position.
This brought me to the idea to turn the cosmos inside out in the visual perception, so that you don't look outside in the world and cosmos, but you see the world and cosmos inside yourself and the inside then turns out.
So I did one step further by putting this idea into the visual subjectivity, so that you can immediately see this higher dimension, because now you can "see" (half seeing and half understanding) that the outside infinite universe becomes an inward space through which you can go to the other side, that is: the back of your head.
You can see it more or less, not totally but half way, by combination of an objective drawing and subjective seeing.
And then also a micro being should become much bigger too and stand before me to proof my atomic theory and it would also be the promise of my dream that I once should see God.
It didn't succeed
In summer I took some days off, but I was too tired to go back to my work again and I was even afraid to go in the street: I only went out for shopping.
It was because the contact with my colleague's had been rather bad and oppressing and I couldn't stand it any longer.
So I quitted my job and now I had all the time to study my inside out universe.
I made all kind of efforts to turn the microcosm into the macrocosm outside me and so that I should see the micro beings and even stand in their spaceship.
But it didn't succeed.
God as a micro being didn't appear.
The first problem was that it was nice to turn the cosmos inside out because then a point became infinite and the infinity itself became a point, but when I turned my body inside out the form wasn't so nice at all.
It became rather ridiculous.
(But maybe you have to get used to it. Because: what is beautiful? It is what you are used to!??)
And when the microcosm should turn inside out I had to turn my body again from the inside out to see it: it means I had to turn it back again.
Or I had to imagine that  the world as my inside was my second body that could look now outside in the microcosm.
And that was very interesting too: I am the world myself, it is my second I !
Because why couldn't we have two bodies in both directions: inside and outside?
And you could take one and the same shape for both sides: in and out.
But in spite of all the interesting forms and ideas I couldn't find a real hold that it was the way I wished it to be.
The compressed universe.
But what did succeed was a so called compressed universe, because when we see things they become smaller at a distance, and even so that the infinity of the universe is situated at a certain but arbitrary distance: there where parallel lines, for example of a road, cross each other, seemingly on the horizon, but in fact in the infinity of the universe.
The distance of this infinity can be determined arbitrarily, let's say a million light-years, but also at thousand miles or even 10 yards.
Because it is easy to see that things become not only smaller and smaller at a distance in height and breadth, but also in depth, so that even millions of light-years shrink to nearly nothing at all.
And all stars also seem to lie at the same distance, "pasted on a wallpaper."
That "wallpaper" is the infinity as nearby as you want to see it.
And when you look through field glasses towards a town in the distance you can very clearly see how everything is compressed together.
The Einstein Universe as a higher dimension.
It is the same as the Einstein effect when you might travel near the speed of light, because then also everything appears to be compressed together.
But you can also see it also normally when you  look at a distance.
And it is very funny that nobody ever has noticed this.
The inside out universe and the compressed  universe have much similarities with the universe of Einstein as a higher dimension.
But not as a material objectivity, but as a visual subjectivity.
Through the infinity.
And then you could go through that infinity outside the universe, how paradoxical it may seem.
Because outside this compressed universe is an infinite space again.
It is the infinity outside the infinity!
You might also let fall the whole picture into yourself (with the picture of your body also), into your own mind and brain, because there you see things in fact.
(You might even imagine it as little as the brains of the micro people, because they must see our universe too!!)
In heaven.
And then you can project your inside soul outside yourself and imagine your own body as an ethereal body of your dreams and you are in heaven.
(Heaven lies beyond the infinity of the visual universe.)
You are an "angel" in heaven with the world inside of you.
And if everybody does so all our inside dreams become one outside unity.
And instead of many souls now we bear many worlds in our bodies.
So the whole relation between the inside soul and the outside world has been turned.
But you can also join them together as a projection of your dreams in the visual world.
It is the world in which miracles might happen and impossible dreams.
All possibilities together they form the higher worlds of visuality and imagination.
They are above the objective material world, but still connected.
Material objectivity.
And how odd it may seem: nobody has ever seen this so called material objectivity as such, because what we see is our subjective visuality too.
The material objectivity as such is only abstract thought.
We think it, but we cannot see it.
It is what Kant calls: "Das Ding an sich!"  -  The thing on itself.
But what we see is the thing for us!
And Kant went even so far that he said that we couldn't even know what that thing on itself is.
But that is not true: we do think it.
It is our objective thought!
Our thinking is not so bad that it couldn't reach objectivity.
But indeed: the objectivity is a unit with our subjectivity.
And only this unit is real as a higher combination of consciousness.
And it is impossible to know them separated from each other and they also don't exist as separated from each other and that is also the essence of my atomic theory that the cosmos is a cosmos of living beings: there is not a single thing without some one being aware of.
It is all "wrapped up" in consciousness.
The thing on itself is at the same time the thing for us or for the micro beings.
Subjectivity and objectivity fall together in the same consciousness.
The twin paradox of Einstein.
And then there was an other problem, because in the Einstein universe every person may consider himself as standing still in a relation to the other person or thing that moves.
For instance if you walk, you can say: "I am here, still and resting on my place and the world is moving under my feet!"
But Einstein also concludes that the other person (or thing) has a delete of time: his clock will go slower than normal.
But that will lead to a paradox because the other person can also say:
"I am resting here on my place and your clock is moving slower than mine!"
This is known as the twin paradox.
I have never read a clear solution for this problem.
In one book a read: the universe as we know it is the basis for the decision for who is moving or not.
But then you throw the whole relativity away.
The other person is only appearance.
And in an other book: the slowing down of the clock is only appearance.
But then the world falls apart in a real world and a world of appearance.
And then I could ask  myself: why am I always the real person with a normal clock and with the other fellow as an appearance??
Why am not I this appearance as a would-be person, and so that the other fellow is the real one?
Because this would-be person must have a self-consciousness of his own.
So I must have the same chance to play that role too.
(In fact: there should be 2 real persons and 2 would-be persons, that makes four persons!!)
Now there is some similarity here with my inside out universe and compressed universe, because when I see an other person, I see this person smaller than I am, but he sees me smaller too.
But he cannot see me bigger, and I cannot see him bigger likewise.
It is the same that we can only see the other person with a clock delay, but never with a clock that goes faster.
It means: you can only see the other as an appearance.
(If that might be the solution of Einstein's twin paradox.)
As many worlds as there are people.
But then the world and universe go apart in as many worlds and universes as there are people.
Everyone lives in his own universe in which he (or she) is real for himself, but the others are just appearances !!
(It is not a real world but a dream world.)
But that leads us to the following difficult question if "ghosts" (would-be persons as just appearance) have an own consciousness and self-consciousness like we do.
And this leads further to the difficult problem if heaven as the inner world of our soul in dreams and imaginations is populated with conscious ghosts and then also the problem if there is a relation between this inner world and the world of Einstein. (*)
Because every person is two persons: a body person and an inner soul person and this inner soul person can shift into the past, but according to Einstein the body person can shift into the past too as only appearance: maybe there is some connection here to become aware that I am also the body appearance person of the past that looks into the future as today to the other person as a body person. It would complete the relativity with its reverse direction.
And because there are unending many relations of moving persons and objects every person and every object must exist in all time situations too.
(*) Or: why should all those ghosts at least not be occupied by the consciousness of the micro-beings in an sort of identification?? Because if you take the micro-beings in account even a stone can see!!
Similarity between Einstein and my compressed universe. 
So with my inside out universe and compressed universe I have also tried to find a solution for the twin paradox of Einstein, because there is much similarity between them.
(But there is also difference!!)
When I see someone smaller, than he lives in my compressed universe in a smaller compressed universe in which he sees me in an even smaller universe than his, and so on, and so forth, as an infinite progression into the microcosm, but also in reverse into the macrocosm, because at the same time he is also bigger than me, but what I cannot see.
But if all these endless many persons of me and him also have a conscious mind, in what kind of infinite complex world do we live then??
If all appearance is real I must consider that I live in an infinite number of all kind of situations in time and places without knowing them but just one.
It looks all too much, but with the infinite world of the micro beings and the possibility of an infinite number of higher dimensions, this could be true too.
And if every person of us lives in the minds of an infinite number of micro beings in the microcosm, you have about the same idea of what I told you before of the inward progression of compressed universes.
And your soul is then an infinite number of higher and higher beings in the cultures of the microcosm.
You have not one ethereal body but an infinite number of them.
You are constantly in the heavens of the microcosm without knowing it!!
If you really consider what infinity means, it could be frightening too.
You could feel so small and unimportant, but yet at the same time you are embracing all this infinity in your mind by thinking about it and imagining.
Every one is here and every one is I!
If it is really true that the other person is just appearance then there is a further connection and development of this idea in my compressed universe but also in the normal reality, because nobody says of himself: "I'm there!"
Everyone says: "I'm here!"
That means: we are all at the same place.
We are all here and nobody is there, because the person as an objectivity outside of me is just appearance for me, but he himself finds himself in the same situation as me, namely to be here too and to see me there as an objectivity and appearance.
So all the infinite number of people and micro people of the universe too: they are all here at the same spot!
Have you ever thought about that?
And we are all one and the same person too, because everyone says: "I am I !!"
Everyone is I and this one BIG I * in every I is: God himself !!
This is the higher dimension of awareness how the universe is put together.

* See for mega-l-ick as BIG I in my dream of God!
And Einstein as Ein-Stein means: one stone in German language and a stone is an old symbol for God and is also the same as mega-l-ick.
It is the idea that the universe has its foundation in the I and that is what Einstein means when he says that the observer is always standing still as centre of all moving of the universe.
But because the twin paradox has not solved yet I'm not sure of this idea.
I consider it as one kind of vision amidst all kinds of other ones toward a total system.
But maybe it is the real centre of them all: who knows !?
The illusion of the BIG I !!
I had been busy with my inside out universe and other subjects for 5 of 6 month at the end of 1977, but it didn't succeed, maybe because the illusion of the "big I", the illusion of the independent individual had died on the cross and couldn't found back again.
The individual is not only an absolute subject as God for himself, but also an object for an other subject as God.
He is not only real for himself, but also just appearance for the other person.
And this is the essence of Einstein's twin paradox.
And this was also the paradox of Jesus, that he who was God, also had to die.
Because he was just appearance for the others, his disciples, who ate his body and drank his blood.
(pure cannibalism!!)
Because the truth is not only the individual, but the community as well.
And this is my atomic theory: God is the community.
But also the individual in it and with it as a higher synthesis of both of them in the Holy Spirit.
But here in my inside out universe the accent was laid on the individual again.
But then it had to be developed to a total system in which the other is granted to be a God for himself too.
And this is easy to understand but impossible to visualize, because in the visualization I for myself:
I am the biggest and the other is smaller and I cannot see it reverse.
(In my compressed universe I had worked this out to a balls system in which I lived in a compressed universe as a ball or sphere, but in which I saw the other person smaller, so he must live in a smaller sphere or ball and saw me on his turn smaller, and so on, and so forth as an infinite progression into the microcosm as into the macrocosm as well; but I could not see the bigger one: only the smaller person.)
It is like in Einstein's relativity in which the other has a clock delay and we can understand that he also must have a clock acceleration, like we for ourselves must have a clock delay too and both has to seperate in two persons.
We can understand this, but not we cannot experience this.
Or we should interpret our remembrance of the past as a clock delay, and look from there in today as the future.
I liked to be on my own.
Any way: I tried and tried, but I had to stop with it.
It was difficult for me to stop with the subject, because it was so interesting, full of new ideas, and also mystical, as if I already was taken up in higher celestial spheres.
And in spring 1978 I was still busy with pasting together spatial figures from cardboard like a dodecahedra for example and thinking about the changing of angles by looking at them from different directions.
I remember that my friend and his wife came to visit me and laughed at me about my playing around.
It were good years, because now I had a home for myself with a TV and a big red couch to lie down and after a while I overcame my fear to walk in the street a little and I became used to make a stroll across a big square in the neighbourhood in the evening to look at the stars.
I didn't have to work and I made my life comfortable.
I didn't like people around me and liked to be on my own.
I only like them on a philosophical distance.
And: they don't like me either !!
Because I live in an other world of infinity.
I'm a solitary person.
I'm the Jesus who nobody wants in the first place.
Maybe later when I'm dead.